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Upon reading Andrea Lamont's Mothers with Borderline Personality Disorder I found validation: "It is hypothesized that children of mothers with BPD will suffer a myriad of psychosocial problems resulting from the mother's borderline symptomatology...." These psychological problems are not just hypothesized findings in some book. They wreak havoc on my mind and body on a daily basis. Although diagnosis has been turbulent to say the least, multiple psychiatrists have come to a prognosis of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), Major Depressive Disorder (MDD), Bi-Polar Disorder, and my favorite Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder (ADHD). Is it not obvious the negative ramifications BPD mothers pose for the developing child? By the very nature of the disorder, [mothers] display low levels of warmth, and high levels of intrusiveness and hostility; in this way, mothers with BPD are often classified as "high risk" parents (Newman & Stevenson,  2005), at risk of child abuse and/or drastically over protective behaviors (Lamont, 41). Theses behaviors are defined by the borderline-mother's perception of the child as either "all good," who needs to be saved, or "all bad," who needs to be reprimanded (Glickhauf-Hughes & Mehlman, 1998). My own experiences with "unresolved traumas" continue to torment me in spite of all the psychiatric treatment I've received. It does make one question those in charge of making not only my mother but also myself well again.

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Newman, L., & Stevenson, C. (2005). Parenting and borderline personality disorder: ghosts in the nursery. Clinical Child Psychology and Psychiatry, 10, 385-394. Print.

Glickhauf-Hughes, C., & Mehlman, E. (1998). Non-borderline patients with mothers who manifest borderline pathology. British Journal of Psychotherapy, 14, 294-302. Print.

Lamont, Andrea. "Mothers with Borderline Personality Disorder." Graduate Student Journal of Psychology. 8. (2006): 39-44. Print.

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